Far Away Land

Published May 2, 2015 by ammaraj

Sometimes I want to run away to a place where no one will judge me , nod me, humiliate me, bug me and taunt me. A place far away from what is right and what is wrong, where my soul fuses with the divine nature of God and there happiness, love and carelessness only. A place away from all the charmers and hater where I can be truly what I want to be. A place where my heart belongs. A place far from competitions and races, where each person is an ultimate winner.

Dua

Published February 9, 2015 by ammaraj

In the midst of wealth, health and might of men
I see a young lad with a power of pen
With a heart as pure as a child’s smile
Innocence of heart can be sensed from a mile

With a dream as high as the 7th sky
No other option, than to fly
As high as your dreams take
Conquer the world, before you break

With a speech so gentle and heart so pure
May you become the diseased creatures’ cure
Helping humanity remains your utmost goal
Eternal contentment resides your soul
Ameen

Delusion

Published February 9, 2015 by ammaraj

My mind is caged
with a soul imprisoned
the body is free
but heart enraged

A never ending race
perfection lies on finish line
Im living someone’s story
and forgotten my own face

We all have our own ways
but unified hearts exist
someday ill meet myself
In this amazingly deluded race

The moment I meet my fate
the world will know peace
flowers shall bloom my gardens again
For that moment I can no longer wait

A letter to my future

Published September 28, 2014 by ammaraj

Dear daughter,

i know you being handed to me in a long time for now and im waitinf anxiously for the moment when ill look into ur little blacks eyws your flawless fragile skin and see the reflection of myself in you , God knows how much I wait for the moment when i will hold your small hands and will try to find myself in you how ever I dont want you to make the mistakes I made in life  I want you to take the best of me and your dad (whoever that be) that why I am gonna tell you somethings that I wish someone would have told me so that I wouldnt have learnt it through the hard way but thats life and thats how it is, all these regrets and obstacles are dots connecting togather in a way , a way that will take you much higher and much further away from life. Imagine how boring life would be if there were no obstacles just plane roads and lomg boring walks. Anyways, coming to the point so here are some of the things u need to understand very carefully…

1- No matter how worse things or people turn out they can be only cured/altered by love and love alone, love is so powerful that even ur worst enemies can become ur true lovers, we should love God and its creation, its must to live in this world, without love this world can look like a sad black place but with love flowers can bloom even in the deepest darkest cavea.

2- Take risks- I mean thats what life is for right to take risks,make mistakes, learn something new, change plans , make new mistakes again and learn more. Seriously my daughter I dare you to get lost, I dare you to fail, I dare you to try new things, I dare you to make decisions symchronized with ur heart even if ur mind says otherwise, life would be so boring if you do the same thing repeatedly again and again everyday, break the routine, write somehing new, change tour genre, dont sleep for a day , its perfectly fine as long as what you do makes uou happy and you wont regret this day later.

3- Never lie in any condition unless the lie does more harm causes fitnah, never ever lie otherwise, if you lie , to hide that lie you have to lie againa nd then its a chain of lies that you cant keep up with all your life, have the courage to speak the truth even if its not in your favour at all, speak it anyways because the load of the regret after lying stays on ur heart for a lifttime and it is is cery heavy, your mother knows that :)

4- Be brave enough to change. its perfextly fine to change coz the symbolic representation of a dead man is a straight line that is doing the same thing again and again and again. Life is related to change , so change for good, change for love

5- Boys lol

this is the mist 

A Letter To Dad

Published September 28, 2014 by ammaraj

Dear dad,
To the best dad ever, from where should I start? First of all thanks for the things I never asked and you still provided and Secondly thanks for the things I asked and you provided, You have guided and loved me as much as you could. You have nurtered me with your heart and soul, and have made me a better person, a free person, an important person, and no matter how much I try to pay back, I just can’t. Im sorry for all the troubles or shame Ive caused you, I never meant it. I might be just one of your child out of many but I have only one dad who is the best and my super hero. You worked really hard to provide me with all that I have , excellent education, good house, all the ease and luxeries of life, thanks alot! You are my hero and all my life I will strive to be atleast 5% of who you are, if not completely. You will always reside in my heart with sweet memories of being the best dad in this world. Thanks alot for being there and protecting me from all thr dark in this world. But now I think I’m ready to cope with this world myself.
Yours truly,
Ammara.

Marriage: A blessing or a curse?

Published June 18, 2014 by ammaraj

ringIn our society marriage is considered the most integral part of one’s life. It is believed that marriage completes a person. As they say in Greek mythology when Zeus cut the children of moon ( who were male combined with female) into half , each half sought the other half all its life till they got reunited. Marriage is considered pretty much the same just there is one problem…

In our socities we are only told about the good things about marriage which most of the times are only delusions which merely exist for example the concept of happily ever after, a companion for love and affection, a big happy family and so on. But let me come towards matters that you wont be likely ever told about marriage…
Matter No 1: Sacrifice:
Sacrifice is a big part of any married life and it can come from either spouse, marriage is not some happy-go-lucky charm, it really takes a lot of “giving up” on habits, jobs, desires, passions, careers, etc.

Matter No 2: Responsibilities:

From the day 1 of your marriage till your death bed, marriage will surround you with a deep ocean of responsibilities, of your husband, of your in-laws, of your children etc.

Matter No 3: Worries and Stress:
First the stress of not having children, then stress of having them, then their school, then their college, then their jobs, then their marriage and then the kids of your kids and so on…

Matter No 4:Privacy Exploitation:

Marriage and privacy are two parallel roads that can never meet no matter how much you try, what’s their is yours and what’s yours is theirs, period.

Matter No 5: Constrain
Marriage has the ability to bound and paralyze you to a very great extent. The companionship and obligation can restrain you from following your life long dreams and passions.

Of course there are always 2 sides to a coin, like its curses, it has its blessings too but marriage is a vow which is not to be forced upon someone, but it should be fulfilled with full dedication  and commitment whole heartedly.

Journey Back To Life (Cry of A Sinner)

Published June 16, 2014 by ammaraj

Drunkard with illusions

Chit chat with boys

No goals, nothing

What an unnecessary noise!

 

My life has been empty

My goals are abandoned

I am leading to a mere dilusion

these lonely eyes are saddened

 

Give me a power to conquer

all the deepest regrets and fears

lead me to the straight path

and wipe away all my tears

 

Bring me back to life oh Lord!

A duration has passed since the lights are seen

Make me one of your beloveds

and turn this filthy soul, clean

 

If you go this time oh Lord

I wont be able to bear

this aimless and clumsy way of living

My life would be shattered! I swear

 

So stay close to me

and guide me to whats right

So I grow up one day

to praise your infinite might

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